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Friday, June 24, 2011

Onwards to a New Land!

Hey Guys!
This is more of an announcement that a blogpost. After some issues I had with blogger, I've migrated this blog to Wordpress.com.

Here is the link to the same: http://myuntamedmind.wordpress.com

It's the exact same blog, with all the posts. I hope to see you all there :)

Cheers!
Srdp!

Friday, May 13, 2011

Letting them wander...

*Startled, raises head from the droop it was in; squints at the brightness; breathes in; smiles*

The human brain. A wonderful masterpiece by The Creator, indeed. It observes. It learns. It stores.
Whats inside!?
The human mind. Some say its part of the brain. I don't think so. Unlike the brain, it analyses. It invokes emotions. And then perhaps, give the analysis to the brain to store!

We are happy, when our mind analyses and gives a positive message as an output. We are unhappy, when it instead, gives a negative one. The thing is, in both cases we are quite clear what we are feeling.
Now, what if the mind gets stuck. What is there isn't any output? Well, now imagine that the brain is still doing its work.  Its still observing and learning. And storing without an analysis.

What you have now, is an overload of information and no idea what it means. In other words, you are Confused. You are unclear what you feel at that time. Wherever you are and whatever you do, you'll just be clogged, dazed. Your mind is 'preoccupied'. And really, that feeling is really, really frustrating. Your mind knows it is in such a mess, yet its helpless.
During such times, anything you do, is, in all probabilities, gonna fail. If not fail, the outcome would really ordinary at best. Which just adds on to that frustration.

There isn't ANY human in the world, who wouldn't have felt this. And getting rid of it is not really a piece-of-cake kind of issue. The most common thing we all try to do is distract ourselves. We try to do things we generally like. And what we mostly end up doing is, get more confused. Why you ask? My reply would be simple: You are still doing things. Your brain is still storing more stuff and your mind is still stuck!!

Much like modern computers, our mind also needs to be defragmented. And the best way, I feel it can be done (which is the way I do it ! :D ), is just hit the Pause button. A time to introspect. And more often that not, staring at an empty, open space just speeds up the process!
Calm. Clarity. Confidence.
How? The stuck mind, is a mess of unconnected facts and emotions. Its stuffed over its limits and we have this illusion of being cramped and stuffy ourselves, because of this. Now, imagine a scenic view. Wide open space and everything in perfect order, The order of Nature. Our mind, loves to imitate. It sees order, it would try to be ordered it self. It sees space. It would try to make space as well! And since we are just taking in a vast, never-ending picture, the brain does no much work. And the mind, well it gets all the time it needs to sort everything out! It unclogs itself and it untangles that mess of facts and emotions! It lets them all wander in that emptiness and they come back, solid and coherent!

When all that is almost done, you droop your head one last time and then you do the first line of this blogpost! A wave of clarity and enlightenment crashes down on you and the world, is understandable again.

PS: This post was in response to the 'Man Staring at the Sky' picture, posted as part of the Pic Prompts challenge in TE. :)
And, I'd love discussions on this brain-machine analogy that I thought up! :)

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Thursday, April 14, 2011

The Lucky Charm

A few days back, a friend of mine, SL, seemed waay more dejected than he normally becomes. Not that he is always sad. Actually, come to think of it, he never is sad. You know, he is that carefree guy, doesn't take anything to heart, has a smile for any situation and can lighten anyone's mood. But no, today, he was visibly sad.
"SL, What's up? You seem dead!" "Yea doode, I can't believe someone would do this to me! Why did they have to steal it!".
Clearly, I deduced that someone had stolen it from SL. Only that would explain, the sadness.
"Dai, you could have lost it. There's no proof that someone stole it, right?", I said, optimistically.
"No. I'm pretty sure it was stolen. I'm going to so lose my Volleyball match, tomorrow."
The time was 5.17pm. The match was at 9am, the next day. I decided to help him find it. For, I was, his close bosom buddy. "Macha, you don't have to help and all, I mean, if its stolen, its impossible to find...", he whined. "SL, what are friends for? Nanbaen da (Friendship, dude)!  ", I said, with a grin. The hunt for the elusive, begins.

We first began by scouring his room. As expected, that wasn't of any use. SL quickly deduced the reason for our less luck. " Dude, we forgot to use them!" he remarked. I got what he meant. And scam! I scooted to my room and brought, The Dectectives' Hat. 
I asked SL,"When was the last time, you saw it?" "It, as in the hat?" "No da.", I said with a 'Duh!' look. He smiled. That old carefree one. Almost immediately. he became solemn, and replied, "This afternoon, about 3. Right before I slept off." SL and his sleep. It was the most talked about thing amongst us. "I guess, I guess it was stolen, when I was sleeping. I think my roomie didn't lock the door." he continued. "Well, that's obvious...", I thought to myself. SL gave the brilliant idea, of enquiring the neighbours.
IG comes along, all smiles. SL and I give him the lowdown. He smiled again. "I'll tell you all now, You will not find it. You will fail!", he said, with that teasing grin, followed by a chuckle. We were not disheartened. No, cos this was usual! And it was our lucky charm! Friends, they sure have their own ways to bring luck into the mix!
Vader, a wingmate, told us that a creepy guy, hooded and big, was seen lurking the walkways of wing 10, at around 5. "Must be him!", Vader concluded. We agreed. Backtracked to SL's and this time, with the hat, our luck was better. On his cupboard, there was a Pepsi can. This was great. Why? Cos, We drink, coke!
Problem? It was waay to high to reach, even for SL.
In all our previous investigations, like The Case of the Screaming Closet and The Case of the 100-Watt Smile, the hat was an integral part. Now again, it was to be used. Fortunately, our hat was boomerang-able. Gently, yet firmly, I threw it  towards the can, and dutifully, it fell down. On further investigation, (ie. opening removing a note that was inside, and licking the remaining drops of pepsi in it :P),  the note read as follows:

'Hello! I'm thinking you would have noticed the loss by now. I'm CR. And yes, I did take it. And I shall tell you where it is.... Na-ah! Not so fast, U gotta solve a riddle first! Here it is.
"Where is it, you ask? Alas, The last of this, is in me, and you, my dear, are the one before. Yet, it wanders, lagging behind the first of the last. But, dear, in the end, who is first? Seems like, it is, the second in our family... I'm there where it flows, where many live and die. I'm there where its not dry, come and find me, can you?"
Best of luck, SL. And you too Peri, I know your helping. 3:) '
The time was 7.23pm.

"That was weird. Since when did CR start writting riddles", asked SL. Valid question. Now onto solving this riddle. "SL, The second part, 'I'm there where it flows...', it means, water, right?", I ask. "Yes, it seems so. And the first one?", he wonders. A few minutes go by. "YES!", SL exclaims! "Peri, peri, see! 'Last is in me', 'you are the one before', 'first of last', 'second in family'...!", he says, all in one long breath.
It dawned on me, " 'E', 'U', 'L'... second in family ah!?" "Umm, family? maybe...its..." "Alphabets,'B' !", we shrilled! 'BLUE'. "The note, referred to 'Blue Water'. ", SL, jubiliantly said. Bracket, who had just taken a bath, passed by and heard this. "Oh man, you people planning to go to Blue Lake now? Nice, I'll join!", he said. I shot a look at SL. "Blue lake!", I whispered. "Yea Brakky, We're going there now, come!" "Wait wait, let me put on my pants!", Brakky said as he ran to his room, with a towel around his waist. Time was 8.16pm.

We reached the lake in about 15 mins. On the way, we gave the situation to Brakky, and also, we had to spend some time, searching for the hat, which blew away, while riding. We were greeted by the huge 'Beware of Crocodiles' sign. Goosebumps.
When we reached there, Brakky lead the way, and we searched the banks. In vain. On our way back, still walking along the banks, SL noticed something different. A particular part of the forest was unusually, lit up. Lit up by LED light, as pointed out by Brakky. Being the smallest in the group, I was made to go into the forest and check it out. Carefully, managing to reach the light, and saw another short note.

'Congrats. You've made it. I didn't think  you would though. Its here, just look around.'

And sure enough, it was there, in a plastic bag under a rock, that looked very much like CR's face. I picked it up, and ran back to them.(sustaining a scar on my hand... oh well!)
I saw SL, wide-eyed, happy. The SL we all knew. He grabbed the bag, and took out its content. His favourite Orange Underwear. The match would be won, after all! :D


[This was part of a challenge, taken up by fellow bloggers. Topic: To write a post connecting Friends, Underwear, Hat and Blue. And this was my reply to it! ;) ]

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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Lemon Revolution!

Hi there!
Hope you all are in the pink, maroon and violet of health! I was pale pink, if you all wanted to know :)
Well, as an Indian, the past month has been tremendous. For mainly 2 reasons:
  • Epic World Cup win \m/ and
  • Anna Hazare's fast and victory [regd. the Lokpal Bill]
Since I've already talked loads about cricket, in a blog as well as a video, I wanted to blog on the bill today.
Being the patriotic Indian that I am, just like everyone else, I too joined the 'India against Corruption' motion. Why?  Because, even though I (and basically millions of other people I guess) had no idea  about the bill, I did know one thing. Apparently, this ensured a 'Corruption free India'. And I loved the concept!
Few days back ( accurately, 10/4/11), I was interested in knowing what I/we had campaigned for. It was just a matter of time that that feeling comes in any of us! I g-searched quite a bit aand...

The Lowdown:
Well, the most important change, is the establishment of completely independent institutions, namely Lokpal at the Centre and Lokayukta in each state. Point to note, I guess, is that no minister or bureaucrat can influence investigations. They have the powers to initiate any action on its own, without any need of permissions from any other authority.
The selection committee seems to be broad-based. It is said to include members from judicial background, Chief Election Commissioner, Comptroller and Auditor General, retired Army generals and outgoing members of the Lokpal. [apparently ensures that there is no govt. influence, whatsoever]
The CBI's corruption branch will be merged into the Lokpal, which simply means that the Lokpal now would have powers to  register FIRs, conduct investigations under the Criminal Procedure Code and launch prosecution.
Cases against the accused will be seen within 1 year and the trial will also be completed in the next year, thus ensuring that the corrupt politician/officer is sent to prison by 2 years. [that sounds awesome!! =D]
If any work of any citizen is not done in prescribed time in any government office, Lokpal will impose fine on guilty officers, which will be given as compensation to the complainant.
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Yeah, well, that just sounds awesome, right? Feels uber-empowering. It like it is the one-stop, one-shot solution for the rampant corruption in dear ol' India!
Its super that most of India voluntarily rose up to this movement, and has shown spontaneous interest in bringing about a desperate change in the current state of affairs.  But, here's the catch.

  • The Lokpal has wide ranging, potentially destructive powers, from dismissing a case outright, to blacklisting a firm. With such unrestrained powers, all we can hope to do, is to appeal to the hearts of the panel members, and hope they are benevolent!
  • The selection policy is really screwed up. Since the Lokpal is given such immense power, an important question is, Who will wield this power? As such, there is no way to make this selection, idiot-proof.
    • Apart from the people mention in the previous section, Nobel Laureates (Indian origin), last 2 Magsaysay award winners (Indian origin) and Bharat Ratna winners will form part of the Lokpal. The first thing I found weird is, 'Why should Nobel Laureates, who have spent their entire life, outside India, have any say in the Lokpal?' And whats the point in bringing in Bharat Ratna winners? Why not Padmasri awardees then? I found the selection way too random and senseless.
  • Lokpal, apparently is to be a deemed police. They are also the court. Thus, they have, seemingly taken the security and judiciary positions as well, reducing the 'burden' on standard courts and police across the country. How can you confer such powers to a group mentioned above? Insane is a mild word to use.
  • We are a democratic nation. Infact, India is the World's Largest Democracy. Keeping that in mind, its outrageous that unelected people will take decisions on who will be arrested and who should not.
Well, that's about it. I still, have utmost respect for Anna Hazare and I am NOT saying that he fought for a wrong cause. The Lokpal bill should be amended. It should be made more democratic.
It cannot blatantly seize property, shut down establishments or act as the court. It should, rather, accept complaints from the public, file reports, get evidences, and share it to the general public; the media and us bloggers will surely gobble it up!
If not, an important question would arise:
"Who will guard the guards?"


(*In the title, lemon refers to such a scenario. Looks beautiful outside, but may be sour inside =D )

Saturday, April 9, 2011

In-Spired!

G'day people!
It's a  great day! Mom's back home, and Ive finally managed to write a poem after a huge 9 month hiatus!
This is the first one I'm posting on my blog! Your comments are expected :D

Why do you elude me?
For you I wander, night and day;
Peeking from and sinking into the sea,
Hide and seek, you play with me!
Ages have passed, wanting you
And every second, the mirage grew...

You should know you are ruthless.
With ‘The Sound of Music*’, I find
Fleeting seconds of happiness,
and then you are ‘Gone with the Wind*’!

To spark the flame of my imagination,
To lift me to heights of elation,
To unleash my inner potential,
I need you, in amounts torrential!

Months, it’s been since you touched.
Lo! In one swift golden motion,
Onto my head you've firmly clutched;
Immediately creating in me,
An awesome emotional eruption!

Inspiration. Once it comes, hold on tight! :)
Through my head, to my heart,
Down the veins, turning my blues to red!
This happiness, sweet as apple tart,
Compensates, for all the red I bled!

My world’s spinning again, I smile.
Finally, I breathe fresh and free.
Thanks to all, for being there all the while!
Now I can face the world, gleefully!
And as the mature in me feels empowered,
The kid in me, dances with ecstasy! :)

[*-Both were blockbuster Hollywood classics :D ]

~Sreedeep Sreekanth
   2.12am, 9th April, 2011

Sunday, April 3, 2011

New Era in Indian Cricket.

Hey folks!

Its been a very long time. Have been really busy lately... And my computer still isn't fixed up. Somehow, blogging in someone else's lappy just doesn't feel right.
This isn't a real blog post. As you all must be knowing, India won the ICC World Cup, on home soil; the first time any team has done so, in the process, shattering many, many well established jinxes.
In a previous post, I had written about cricket in India, the sheer intensity it creates. And HA! I predicted the winner too xD

Along with a set of buddies, we watched the match at our college's open air theater. Sheer awesomeness throughout! And we took a video of the post match celebrations.
This post is just to share a video I made. :) Hope you like it!


I'll surely be back soon with a proper blog post!
Till then, revel in the fact that we are now, World Champions \m/
Peace out! \/

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Politico!

Howdy! :)

Been a while I suppose! What with my lappy having power issues and numerous other obstacles, blogging took a back seat.
And fine, I did fall into a lazy patch too :P

Politics. One the few relatively sensitive topics people love to discuss and debate on. Personally, I hate discussions on politics. The discussions are generally about who is better and frankly, unless in those once in a Very Blue Moon (VBM) cases, I don't get how anyone of the (Indian) politicians are better!

One of those VBM cases was when IIT Madras held its elections for various Sec post, both at Insti and Hostel level, about 2 weeks back. That was when I first witnessed, in first person, a full scale election.
And believe me, I was awe-struck at the sheer depth and planning, at just the college level!

Voting - Choosing from different shades of grey.
Coalitions, Spies and the sort are stuff I've just read about in various articles in newspapers. My mind always said, "Newspapers! They exaggerate everything!". Post elections, the mind said, "Sonu, anything is possible in this world!". [Note: Sonu is what I'm called by family. You ppl stick to Sree/Srdp :P]
Intricate webs of wacky alliances, false masks, vehement campaigning and anti-campaigning... We had it all!

The fun part of election is obviously, when we get to question the candidates. This is when the general public literally, verbally 'rapes' the person on the dais! Some helpless candidates almost pee in their pants when struck with an awesome question! :P

In today's politics, the trend is 'To Hell with Manifestos!'. So what is the deciding factor?

Answer: Votebanks. A term we (painfully) read throughout civics without really actually knowing how powerful they really are. Insti election showed me just how powerful they can be. To win an election, all a candidate really has to do is to appease that votebank! IITs have the general tendency to have more Telegu population, more so in Madras. After election, a running joke among us was, if you wanted to win a post here, the only requirement was to say, 'I am from Andhra Pradesh and I speak Telegu.' xD
On a more serious note, winning the elections for someone else, all depended on how they manipulated the majority votes, by making really crafty alliances with other candidates.
Something like,
A-"Ok macha! We'll deal up. I'll put coordship benefits to your people, if you ask them to vote for me"
B-"Hmm, What about the allaince between C and D?"
A- "Light le, Ive sent spies to cup their plans."

[If the language stumps you, that is close to a typical convo in our coll. :D]

Here is the funny thing: If say, the majority is supporting the cause of some fellow and the 'group leader', who may have had sudden diffrences of opinion, suddenly comes and says, "This guy is waste, lets vote for that other guy!". Everyone, without even thinking of batting an eyelid, switches decisions!

So, when all this goes on, a real, deserving candidate, who may as well have the power to bring radical and useful changes in the existing system, is sidelined. All because, he was not from the majority!
I just feel that the very purpose of holding elections is defeated, if such a situation arises.
But then again, Who is the deserving candidate? 

The answer to that, maybe you should read the Blog's subheading. :)

Cheers! :)





Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Willow Wisp!

Namaste!
Thinking why so Indian, suddenly? Nothing really, just those rare patriotic times we all get into.
Being born Indian, we are mostly almost defined by characteristic traits. Like, we are natural misers...we love to complain about everything, and of course, we don't bother to act in anyway at all! We keep our  houses immaculate, but our surroundings like our local garbage dump. Oh wait, did i say like a garbage dump? It is one isn't it? :P
But heres a very important defining character. 
We. Love. Cricket. Period.
And right now, especially when the CWC is going on live, on Indian soil...with TV ads filled with Sehwag's Upar Cutt, Bhajji's MyCan Doosra and Win it for Sachin...There's no better time to get patriotic.
I am no Cricket Fanatic, mind you. Right after the WC season, I'll be back to La Liga (Jai Barca! :D )and EPL. I do not really know who has the best economy among fast bowlers, nor do I know who has taken the most number of singles.
Here's what I do know. India is playing. A simple 3 word sentence, that for some reason, brings goosebumps on most Indians, ANYWHERE, in the world. (Note: The goosebumps are greater when the opposition is Pakistan or Australia! :D)


Cricket is one special force that unites us Indians; the most popular relegion, of most Indians.
I think its even safe to say that 83% of the so-called atheists in India, do actually believe in one god, Sachin Tendulkar! \m/
This legend, the Little Master, has such a huge fan following, one even Rajnikant can't possibly beat!
A close friend of mine, a master ambigrammer, and a blogger, posted his first main post, modeled on this God. Check it out here.
So, as long as we have people like these around, Cricket will remain the King of Indian Entertainment.
With huge tides of fans, thronging every pub/club/living room/common room ( :D ) in the vicinity, the atmosphere is electric right now!

What I think about the current WC? Nothing really. But it is much much more fun that the last edition! Shocker matches, Chocker matches, Irritating matches, Expected matches...theres one for everyone!
Who I think will win? Dumb question. India!....
[Conscience --> "Thats who you want to win, dumbo!"
 Me --> "Oh...yeah..watev!" xP)



Monday, February 28, 2011

This Time, Last Year!

Hi all!
Memories. Our life is one big collage of various events that crossed our paths, during the course of our time. 
The year 2010 was a pretty big one in my life and I'm sure it was for many of my batchmates as well. 
Why? Here in India, being a Science student, and being interested in Engg, more often than not equates to the following: 
  1. Destroy the Boards and/or
  2. Clear IIT-JEE/AIEEE.
Seems mundane and uncool, no? Well, It sure is, when looked at the academics point of view. 
In my case though, I can very confidently say, that I may have had the most fun time of my life, during my preparations for JEE. All credit to that, goes to my awesomely terror set of friends, who always managed to rock any place we were in!


Why did we enjoy the classes? 
Pre class chatter. Seems stupid? You have no idea what we people can yap about! The latest scandals and rumors, making up new scandals and rumors ( :P ), sledging, betting and daring... I still remember some really EPIC dares, where one of my friends had to give a chocolate to a girl, only to find the chocos were heart shaped... #HILARIOUS!
Obviously, observation of the opposite gender ( 3:-D ) was a regularity, even though, sometimes it was a rarity... ;P. And the random going to local shops, buying chips packets and seeing them empty in 2 seconds, or sneak silently while you savour your meal. only to be chased down by rabid friends who sniffed you out during their break-time prowlings!

And I have to confess, the academic part of my life was also, quite a riot. I was blessed with studd profs for physics and chem and just attending their classes was bliss. Interactive classes, rock...always, and their work, paid off, as we all are quite happy where we are.

Accepted, this time, last year, all of us plain tensed. Tensed, cos we had to score in 2 big examinations. But, upfront, we all had that, 'Who-gives-a-damn' smile and a Cool cat attitude. 

As i wrote this, I kinda realised, that wherever we are, whatever we do, in the end, its the people who we are with, that defines how much we actually enjoy, what we do. And I'm lucky, that JEE gave me a chance, to get to know my friends better, and also, to make, many more true friends! And also...for letting me enter Insti :D

This is to all of you out there, who made my life, LEGEN.....wait4it....DARY!! 
WE ROCK!! \m/

Monday, February 21, 2011

Exams.

Hello.World!
Lets face it. That four-letter word never fails to bring chills down any student. Esp. so, if the student, had the unique opportunity, to study in India. :P
When we were chotta-bacchas, exams were a nice thing. Questions were interactive and not plain boring, like they are now. For some reason, as far as Ive seen, students till their 6th are not worried about their exams and actually, like to study. But, as we grow old(er), that laziness kicks in, and naturally, we sulk, we complain, we rebel and in the end....try to find, the easier way out
What do I mean by easier way out?
A classic reaction to most of our examinations, is superbly acted out by Mr.Bean, in this short clip...



Familiar? If it isn't, your not worthy of being a teen student!! xP
Very comical, it does seem. But really, when you dunno ANYTHING in a paper, what CAN you do, to pass? 
And no, Flashes of Brilliance and Child Prodigy Power -----> bullshit!
Most of the time, we fail to do exams decently, just because, we get stuck up, on a few questions. Which, ultimately, leads to frustration, restlessness and then, the need to cheat.
You think copying is as funny as it is in the video? The experienced, tell me that the thrill experienced is unique and awesome. I'm sorry, but 83% ( :P ) of the time, thats not the case. And the repercussions in getting caught, is, dear friends, FAR from smile-worthy. 

Umm, for example, here at IITM... Click here....

And no, I did not make all that up!! 
The reactions I heard after people read that : 

"Machi, terror ah iruku le?", "Dude, WTF was that? o.O", "Hahaa, semma comedy da...!!",  "Man, we're screwed", "Naiiiceeeee."... 

I'm quite sure this isn't going to stop anyone from actually cheating. As i had written earlier, in a different context, We just LOVE to take that risk. We are defined by that fearless risk taking, and we are quite proud of it too! 



Wednesday, February 9, 2011

More than 'Just Friends'

Hullo people!
Have you watched Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na? As far as I comprehended the movie, its about this awesome 2 people, who were really, really close friends, but later, discovered that their relationship was not mere friendship; it was, rather, The Pinnacle of Relationships, Love.

I watched that movie more than half a year ago (Yea, I know, Damn late!), and thought, 'Yea, Bollywood. Terrific imagination!'.
Well folks, turns out, the ever-ignorant Me, was shocked to know that that situation is very much possible.
How do I know that? No, Not personal experience (Ob :P ).

Recently, 2 of my friends ( A 'He' and a 'She'), got into an argument. Apparently, 'She' said she wouldn't speak to him 'forever',  for a reason, at that time, obscured (to  me, at least). For a fact, fights between these two were common, and I should have been quite used to this by now. Thing was, for a change, it was 'He' who told me something was wrong. Well, more probing and thinking, (On my part), led me to the conclusion that, once again, a mood swing had swept over her. Mood Swings do this? Why 'Him', you ask me?

The history of these two go back ages, of which, I know jus a small portion of. Lets just say, there was an attempt to upgrade a friendship to The Pinnacle, and somehow, that just didnt work out, and so, they decided to continue as 'Friends'. Close Friends.

Ok, as usual, at the end of the day, (in this case, close to, the end), my thoughts, wandered.
What was the problem? My answer was quite simple. MAN-DOESN'T-FORGET.
Or at least, most don't. Surely, there would many times, when you would have 'forgiven' someone for something they did, but the next time you you him/her, everything comes back and you'll be on your guard.
Likewise here, just that its a LOT more complicated.

You have that immense need to be in each other's company, but can't do that, because maybe, others may think 'something's up'. You constantly shift between two states of mind, not really knowing where you really belong. You feel your 'not  good enough' or 'not worthy of him/her', and go into a self-imposed depressed state, while the other person has no idea, whats happening. You want to prove you can live, peacefully, without the other person, in turn torturing yourself mentally and again, the other person would remain in bewilderment.

I'll give an example of how confused one can be in such a situation.
On asking what 'She' really felt, the reply was, " 'He' makes me feel Happy and Beautiful...umm, Other guys also make me feel Happy and Beautiful... " :P

What to make of this? Like the majority of semi-sane people on the planet, I too love happy endings. Good news, as far as I know, their argument is 'adjourned' (Since I can NEVER say, over!).
Will they finally figure where they stand and decide accordingly? Time, only time will tell! :)

Anyways, for people who were looking for a comedy write-up, Sorry, this time, it was kinda on a serious side.
Perhaps, next time? :D Lol, Only Time will tell =P

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Musings on A Blank Sheet...

Hey ppl!
As a student, I, like all others have been faced with the situation, where I'm given a black sheet of paper, and another sheet, printed this time, which a lot of gibberish written all over it. Most of those sentences started with 'Explain' or ended with a '?'.... Most teachers call this a 'Question Paper'...or something of that sort. We, quite obviously, call them, 'Torture Paper', and quite frequently, we also use the variation, 'Toilet Paper' ! 
And so, on one such occasion, during my 'intricate' process of deciphering the gibberish, my focus shifted, quite naturally, to that blank answer sheet. And so began, a chain of thought, which I shall descibe briefly:

Hmm, A Blank Sheet...What can we do with this Blank Sheet? 
We could, maybe, write an awesome poem or maybe do some intricate line art/pencil shading. We could write articles, make paper planes...heck, we could even pen down some sheet music for an orchestral piece! ( Warning: Last one is advised for experts. Many have suffered from deafness and insomnia from Crap Music xP )

From there, my thoughts wandered to, What am I gonna get from using this Blank Sheet? 
An outlet to vent my creative energy? To get a quick buck, maybe? Critical Acclaim, perhaps? Parental disapproval (Which, btw is what I would get if I had left that paper blank :D ) The Ladies? (What? I'm a normal teen too, dude! =D)


Right, so if I do decide to take my the Blank Sheet, what do I need to succeed?
Thats quite simple. A HUGE stockpile of Inspiration. A wide ocean of Imagination. Peace, Soltitude and maybe, a kinda reclusive personality.... and Huge (Delusions of) Talent.. 
Yup, easy stuff ! xP


Not heeding to the time, or the fact that the invigilator was staring at me, probably thinking I had given up hopes of attempting the Torture Paper, my thoughts went on to...What'd I do, if I depleted my stockpile of Inspiration?
Then, Maybe I should take a trip to the woods, An Artist's retreat, as they call it... Or Read/Reflect on great works of art... Or Sleep...maybe even have Mind-Altering Drugs (Gee, i wonder how THAT came into my mind! )
I then detoured to what unwanted stuff could happen when ! was 'recuperating'... I could, umm, be attacked by a tiger in the woods, or get highly Demoralised after seeing the great artworks... Plain oversleeping ( which I'm prone to! :D )...or get arrested for drug abuse. LOL!


Now suddenly, a teeny-tiny portion of my head remembered that I had to write on this sheet.Thoughts became gloomy... I thought, 'Man, What if I fail to conquer The Blank Sheet!?'
Flee the world of The Blank Sheet? Wander the Epic Wilderness of Unfinished Work and Disappeared Inspiration? Tear it all up and take another Blank Sheet? Or just make sacrifices and prayers to the Blank Sheet gods?


Hmm, in any case, The invigilator came next to me and gave a really, cold stare; actually, it had a bit of sympathy as well. Well, I guess that was the end of the Blank Sheet Analysis...Back to deciphering the Tragic Torture Paper......!

Friday, February 4, 2011

Sorry! I'm Busy!

Hihihi!
Busyness... The term is really quite relative. And it could have various degrees of like-ability.
Theres that 'I love what I'm doing'-busy.... That, 'I dont mind this'-busy.... The 'Hmph, Gotta get this done somehow'-busy...and the worst, the 'OH DAMN! I DONT HAVE TIME'-busy... and....

So, this morning, I was thinking what next to put up in this blog and I got a message from a senior, which read, 'Dude, Did you prepare for the Quiz you are conducting tomorrow?'
Suddenly, something really heavy struck me. And it did NOT feel good.

Well, for general info, I'm a first year, dual degree student of the Metallurgy and Mat. Engg dept of IITM and we're having our department's Tech Fest, 'Amalgam' starting today till Sunday (6th Feb). [ Yeah, This could also be interpreted as publicity for Amalgam =D ]
I am that fest's Quiz Coord, and I was supposed to prepare a 'Grand' quiz for the event, which is held tomorrow. And, as could be easily guessed, I have not prepared anything for it....yet!

So, as soon as afternoon lab session got over, I hopped into my car and wanted to rush home, to do the quiz work. During the whole 1 hour journey from college to home, I thought of quiz questions....At least, thats what I should have done... ! Instead, being the Daredevil I think I am, I peacefully slept off, even though the AC was kinda too high. I woke up to see that 2 hrs had passed, and thanks to a terrible traffic jam ( was too sleepy to see where I was) had not reached home yet.

Finally, when I did reach home, A 'brilliant' idea struck me. "Why don't I blog this?"
Man, you see, LOVES to be in a thrilling situation. The weirdest ideas sometimes crop up, at the most inconvenient of times.
I've been getting calls from friends asking me to attend the inaugural function of the fest. My reply, 'Sorry! I'm Busy! I'm preparing the quiz!'....
Why do we do this? Well, I'm guessing, its a mixture of perhaps, disinterest and also, a confidence that even though we waste some time, the work, will somehow be done.
Is this good? Hell No! That really haunting feeling you get, when you ought to do some work fast, yet your time-passing, is not a pleasurable one. But hey, The sense of satisfaction, when you complete that work, is really, Heavenly! And i think, that is why, we people, still do this! (Atleast, 83% of the humans ;-D )

Right, so I'm gonna make that quiz now!


PS: As I typed, I did mange to make up 7 questions. (Multi-tasking... :P )

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Another Choice, made!


So, I too, enter the world of blogging!
I'll start off with a confession: My presence in the blogging world is 60% because of, what you'd call, 'Peer Pressure'.

It's a really powerful force, this Peer Pressure [Not to be confused with Beer Pressure! :P] And contrary to usual beliefs, its all not that bad.
When its good, I'd say, your part of a crowd...and when its bad...well, your part of a mob! :)
In my case, a lot of good has come out of peer pressure, like say... music, or interest ( albiet just a little ) in sports and most importantly, poetry writing....and now... blogging!
And the bad? For some (lucky) reasons, Ive been blessed with a set of really awesome friends, who haven't yet PP'ed (Peer Pressured*) me into anything that bad!


The rest, 40%...well, hey, Its a place where I can write/show whatever I want to and get away with it! :-D
So, What am I going to do here, specifically? A place where I can blabber my thoughts freely, share interesting stuff and post shocking news?
Frankly, I really don't know! Don't think I ever will either. That, maybe the result of, My Untamed Mind :)